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- laura cerwinske
- Miami, Florida, United States
- Laura Cerwinske is an artist, writer, and a teacher of transformational process. She believes Creativity to be the Supreme Expression of Power.
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Take Two Pictures8 years ago
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What is he thinking?
I really am a cool guy, affectionate and good looking but sad. Look at me. Rugged good looks. All American athletic build. Brush cut, chiselled jaw, angular features, well defined pecs and abs, but whoever created me has left something out. Where was there imagination? Did they think I would never want to consummate a relationship? My brain is bathed in testosterone. If it wasn’t I wouldn’t have these muscles and all these sexual thoughts and desires. But look what they did to me. They didn’t give me the right equipment! I might as well buy a wig and apply to be a nun cause they don’t have the right equipment to be a catholic priest. Ok well, I guess I could be a priest. What’s with Meow? What an insult! If all perception is projection, then maybe I’m gay! That would solve everything! But then again what a body, maybe if I just pump up those muscles and keep working out, it won’t be so noticeable.
What led John to his delight?
John is a child-man, a special person who lvies in the world as an adult
while retaining all the spontaneity and wondermnet of a child. His size is also
more that of a child. When his freinds take him for an icecream milk shake, the
glass is very big... & comes up almost up to his eyes. He can bug out his eyes so that they almost circle around in his head. ,... a childlike trick he’s retained.
His friends love going out with him because he is so much fun. this time they’ve ordered him a vanila shake and when it is placed in front of him he’s as delighted a a child looking at their first one. In fact, his friends have nicknamed him ‘first time’ because so many of his expreiences are like this.
Sometimes though, John doesn’t like this life so much. because strangers can make fun of him for his diminutive size, and because sometimes he would like to show more often the mature, serious understanding he has of life. Most people don’t want to be serious with him, becaue it is so much fun for them to use his manner to retreat into the childlike atmosphere with him.
After this milkshake, he took a big breath and said to his friends,
“look. It’s great for you guys to get off on my zany ways, but did you ever think that I would also like to use you sometimes to be the adult who lives inside me?”
His frineds were astonished. ...They’d thought..... who wouldn’t want to stay in thier kid self. “no’, one friend said. “I’m so sorry. I thought you loved being the goofy kid who always could ligthen our mood.”
“Not so” said John. “Today, my delight would be to have you be my mature friends who listen attentively to me to talk about serious things that are weighing on my heart.”
Assign 2. Combine my story with the one about Maria Conchetta.
In this version, John’s friends laugh him off. They don’t want to talk serously with him, so John decides to leave the restaurant and go think about his problems by himself. but as he’s going toward the door, Maria comes up to him and says that she remembers him from a party the wk-end before. They get into a chatty conversation and then Maria says,
“I couldn’t help but overhear your frineds response to your request and it made me feel very bad. I’m just waiting for my boyfriend to get off work. Would you like to sit down and talk for awhile? I’d be honoured to listen.”
‘Well, I don’t know’, says John. I’m afraid I”d bring you down with my sad talk.”
“Dont you worry about that. I’ve a little something ot get off my chest too,
so we could help each other. And as we don’t know each other real well, we can be free to say what we want. What do you say?”
“Ok,’ said John and looked very relieved. Suddenly his childlike manner
disapated and he looked like a small worried man with large sad eyes.
Maria told John all about her concerns that Angelo would be made uneasy about her illustrious family and artistic heritage. And John told about how his friends belittle him and don’t even realize it. They concluded that in the end, being accepted for who one really is is more important than hiding behind some kind of comformity in order to please others. They left deteremined to show all their true selves ...see what happens and then come back together to support each other again.
I have been fasting for 40 days in an effort to become more spiritual and artistic. My focus each day has been to get up before dark meditate and pray, and then walk the dog. Lately I have been tempted to eat dog food but I have been holding out for my favourite treat – a supersized vanilla shake with whip cream, and chocolate sprinkles! After I walk the dog I practice guitar in efforts to improve and somehow progress to writing my own stuff. The fast initially helped and at times I have had euphoric bursts of creative passion but lately I have felt weak and listless. I have been looking forward to this day of the milkshake, and hope that it will be a new beginning on my quest for artistic excellence. I haven’t made as much progress artistically during my fast but I have lost alot of weight. I had to quit my job because I was too weak to function so I haven’t been able to afford to cut my hair which is good because I am beginning to look like a rock star, a bit strung out. According to the menu at Roxy’s Milkshake Shack, there are various boosters that can be added to your shake to enhance your well being all of which are legal under the FDA. I have chosen, ginko biloba, whey protein, multivitamins, echinecea, and extra whip cream. This shake is going to the best thing I have ever experienced. Better than the space shuttle, it is going to rocket my metabolism into such a meteoric state of ecstacy that I am sure it will take me to whole new artistic levels!
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